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One hundred days of hope One devastating goodbye
An unexpected journey
From childhood mischief and unlikely adventures to the devastating loss of his daughter, Hannah.
What begins as a father's journey through unimaginable grief becomes a deeply personal exploration of love, long-held beliefs, death, and the search for meaning.
A gripping, heartfelt memoir that is as thought-provoking as it is deeply moving.
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After His Daughter Died
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Phil Williams spends his life chasing something he cannot name.
Shaped by insecurity and competition, he learns early to perform, achieve, and succeed. Football gives him identity. Becoming an NFL agent gives him status. Still, the ache remains.
Then he becomes a father.
Hannah, his firstborn, changes everything. Her presence brings a love that feels steady and unconditional, the kind that finally quiets the noise. Life fills with family, work, and meaning.
For the first time, it feels whole.
Until the phone call comes…
Hannah is dying.
What follows is a descent into grief so consuming it dismantles every belief Phil has ever held. He fights for her life, prays for a miracle, and holds her as she slips away. Her death fractures his faith, strains his marriage, and erases the man he thought he was.
In the aftermath, survival comes in fragments. Unexpected signs. Quiet moments of grace. Books that arrive at the right time. A stranger’s touch. Breathwork that keeps him breathing. Travel that opens something new. Through counseling, spiritual exploration, and a reimagined relationship with “God”, Phil begins the slow work of rebuilding.
Guided by Hannah’s presence and transformed by loss, this memoir is a story of love that does not end, faith that breaks open, and what it means to live and love after the unthinkable. This is so much more than a grief memoir.
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More than a story of loss
Things that make this journey so much more than a memoir about grief.
A life full of stories
Childhood mischief, unlikely adventures, football, family and everything in between.
A love like no other
The extraordinary bond between a father and daughter, and the heartbreak of losing her.
Questioning everything
Anger, doubt and the unraveling of long-held beliefs in search of truth.
Humor in unexpected places
Wit, mischief and moments that remind us life is never just one thing.
The possibility of something deeper
Unexpected perspectives on love, life, death, healing and the possibility of peace beyond unimaginable pain
The 100-day countdown
Hannah had 100 days.
We're counting down the same 100 days to the book that carries her.
What People are Saying
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– Lisa Natoli, spiritual teacher
“The best book I have ever read on the process of grief. It is a story of life, death, healing, and the search for truth. It is simultaneously gut-wrenching and inspiring.”
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– Amanda Johnson, author
“A compelling memoir, full of insight, encouragement, and gems of wisdom. Williams strikes the perfect balance between depth and levity, navigating the complex human experience with equal parts humor and vulnerability.”
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– McShan Walker, entrepreneur
“I found myself listening to this book in my car, in my driveway, half an hour after getting home. I couldn’t leave it. Phil’s voice, reading his words, reliving his pain and desperate search for reason … the emotion is visual and contagious.”
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– Grace Watson, writer & editor
“When a naturally gripping storyteller has a story that’s worth telling, you get a book like this. The pages before you will make you laugh, cry, and smile throughout, and, by the end, you’ll feel like you have a new friend— one that you’re grateful to have met and learned so much from.”
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– Gil Wesley, spiritual director & former pastor
"Phil pulls no punches as he skillfully narrates this heart-rending story. Through this book, may you be blessed by Hannah’s ‘unseen angel’ sending ‘new gifts’ of hope, love, and transformation.”
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– Marla Grant, advanced grief recovery method™ specialist
“There’s a lot of redemption and healing written into this story of deep loss. After experiencing one of the deepest tragedies possible, Phil Williams uncovers a fundamental truth about grief, especially following the loss of a child: it burns to the ground everything you once thought important, but from the ashes, remarkable insights and gifts can emerge.”
MEET THE AUTHOR
Phil Williams is a storyteller, merging the worlds of “normal” life, grief, spirituality, sports and more—sometimes with a humorous touch and often with a knack for the whimsical. A former collegiate football star at Florida State University (two-time Academic All-American), he spent nearly three decades as an NFL agent before stumbling through the brutal aftermath of his daughter’s death in search of healing and truth, open to exploring modalities that would have previously been taboo. For the last decade or so, he has enjoyed traversing what he calls the “Robinson Crusoe beaches of the Caribbean” in Costa Rica.
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″I love this BIG, BEAUTIFUL, BRAVE book.‶ - Don Van Natta Jr., ESPN senior writer and NYT bestselling author
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″Beautiful but heartrending memoir of love, loss, and healing.‶ - booklife REVIEWS
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″I love this BIG, BEAUTIFUL, BRAVE book.‶ - Don Van Natta Jr., ESPN senior writer and NYT bestselling author ➢ ″Beautiful but heartrending memoir of love, loss, and healing.‶ - booklife REVIEWS ➢
″I love this BIG, BEAUTIFUL, BRAVE book.‶ - Don Van Natta Jr., ESPN senior writer and NYT bestselling author
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″I love this BIG, BEAUTIFUL, BRAVE book.‶ - Don Van Natta Jr., ESPN senior writer and NYT bestselling author ➢